6 posts tagged “renew u”
18 lbs to go.
i am having the difficulties with the motivation. i have many things that should motivate me. seeing my father in less than a month, my son patting my belly & clothes i used to wear - yet, none of these external factors have lead to much of a change in the olde project. ho hum.
so my whole project has been a bit of a failure. better to say it's the project that's the failure, as opposed to me. ME NO WANT TO BE NO FAILURE. so i'm not - it's just the project.
the good news is that i have 3 months to get back to where i was before bot. three months to lose 16 lbs. well, i'd be happy with 10.
where did i go wrong, you may be wondering. well. i can pinpoint it. on friday, i got a call back for a movie that i auditioned for through my la agent. it set me in a tailspin. you'd think this would probably motivate me - right? a fricking major studio thought for 10 min about having me in their big ass movie. the fact that i would be one of many talking dogs doesn't really disturb me. i mean, why would it? a MOVIE! with me in the credits! come on guys! (the movie is marmaduke, the major studio is 20th century fox - so i can stop speaking in code) so friday was all about the possibility of me flying to LA for the callback and then not having to and then the weekend was stan working on saturday and sunday being kind of eh, and monday being not called back nor in the movie & the heat. dear God the heat and here we are in excuse land!
so, tonight, i dedicate my run to you, my dear reader.
ok! i am on day 3 and yesterday was a huge success. i ran after work. that is my success story.
i've been having crazy ass dreams lately. if i'm pregnant, just shoot me. because that's all i remember of my first trimester. you probably get really crazy dreams because you're asleep 70% of the time. amirite? i'm still sort of disturbed by the one i had last night which may lead me down rabbit trails of insanity in my brain. do not worry though, i have no access to firearms or weaponry.
tonight i am going to clean my tv area. yes. that's the trilling adventure of tonight.
here's a picture of holden. it's been too long
hola! como blah blah blah? yeah? me too!
today being day 2, i tackled one of the hardest to keep clean rooms of the house - the bathroom. ohmygodcouldibeanymoreboring?
it's done. i'm on schedule. i have to clean myself at some point but the good news is, i can now put holden's sweet little butt in the bathtub and we can get rid of his baby tub. ouch! dats some sad news dere.
why am i doing this? i keep asking myself and these are the things i've come up with:
1) i'm not going to get a maid. i've been thinking about it but since we're going to be doing a big move soon, the money i save will be given to a stinky man from a slovic block country. everyone wins!
2) i'm going to be seeing my father in a little over a month. i haven't seen my father in - get ready to get your mind blown - 18 years. i would prefer him to see me a lot firmer and better in shape than i am currently. he has a tendency to give me endearing nicknames like fat ass.
3) i read jule & julia which reminded me that i like a good project - but i'm not insane. a month will do it! also a month has more than 3 weeks and everyone knows that 3 weeks helps you start a trend. not a trend ... shit a ... fuck! i can't remember that stupid fucking word that is means a repeatable activity in your life. augh!!!! also, i think it's three months - this fucking project is doomed.
happy sunday!
ps - my husband put up his first blog post!
so! in a previous post, i said i would get up at 5:30 am and excercise every other day alternating with cleaning a room.
today, i did NOT get up at 5:30 because when i posted that i forgot all about the old feed sacks and how they're more full than the target on alantic on a pay day. do not get discouraged though! I DID IT! i got up around 6:15 with holden, fed him, fed me, pumped some of the excess milk out for a later feeding and got on the fricking treadmill for 20 min. 20 min.? you're thinking. what happened to when you'd run 6 miles? uh, i'll get there. in the meantime, let me bask in the sweaty glow of day 1 of a 31 day renewing mo project. oh that's so fucking ghey.
whatever! i did it. i have run-ish this moring, i've done kitty litter!l, changed the sheets & we've gone to the park and swung on the swings. all this before 11 am. in your face DAY. how's it feel to be my bitch?
day 2 - clean the bathroom.
stay tuned
